Jumbled Thoughts

meh, end of 2004 looks crappy....
I know I haven't been updating here a lot lately, I've been going through a bunch of shit lately mostly revolving around school. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this here before, but I am taking next semester off from classes. This semester (I'll get more into it later) has pretty much gone down the drain so I need time to destrees and the five/six weeks between semesters just ain't gonna cut it, not to mention that all but once I've done worse in the spring semester than in the fall, and I want to do good. This semester was going pretty good for a while, I had a pretty good start to it and actually managed to be organized and all. However, one of my classes, ART361: Art, Poetry, and Religion in Japan, was never going well. First quiz (5th class) I got a 2/25, so I really tried for the second one, in which I got a whopping 6/25. Needless to say I gave up on that class, and when I found out my loan wouldn't be affected, withdrew from it. About the same time I withdrew from that class, all the others went down the toilet. I'm not even sure how it started, but many classes were missed to either being tired or because I didn't want to show up unprepared, little to no work was being done, everything went to complete shit. I thought I could handle a week with five work days and two class days, but it caught up to me so I'm probably going to fail and be put on academic probation. I've come to accept this as shitty as it is, I'm just scared shitless to tell my parents and I hate that I've lied to them that school has been going alright and about next semester. Which brings up another reason for me taking it off, I'd have five class days a week and I can't afford that, I barely got through last spring that way and I'm sure as hell not doing that again. Also add on to my normal expenses I'll be buying a car and preparing to move somewhere, making two day work weeks impossible. I have at least some piece of mind knowing that grades aren't due until after Christmas, so as much as I hate delaying telling them, at least I don't have to worry about affecting Christmas, which has already gone through enough changes for me in the past few years. On a positive note, in less than four years, I think I've had morr experence in college life than many other people can say. I mean, who do any of you know many people who in the span of three and a half years have lived in two dorms then off campus, partyed in many different places and settings, made Dean's List one semester, and then pretty much failed out one semester? Not too many I'd assume, outside of getting my degree, I really can't ask for more in my college life.

Onto other stuff, outside of school things have been pretty good. Been playing video games to help destress, especially on Xbox Live. Now that I have games that are good online (that don't cost extra money, damn you PSO, I'd play you if you didn't cost me extra money ;_; ) I'm using Live more often and have been having a lot more fun with it. Kere and I have been playing a lot of Dead or Alive Ultimate both on and offline (though she is KILLING my online stats, such a shame that the only stats that each DOAU profile doesn't individually keep track of is the online GP and grade, those are matched with the Live gamertag no matter which DOAU profile -_-; ), and me DDR Ultramix 2 (thanx to the improved online interface) when people aren't bitching about me using a controller (even though the jackasses still beat me) just because I don't feel like duct-taping a pad or two to the floor everytime I want to play. Mortal Kombat: Deception is fun online too and so is Halo 2, even though I get my ass handed to me in both, though I think I have a shot of doing well in Puzzle Kombat (aka modified Super Puzzle Fighter II Turbo), and will probably try that online since it appears the roputer is being less bitchy lately than when I started playing MKD online.

I have been working a shitload lately. Had a week with four and a half hours of overtime, almost hit it this week (if I didn't get sick, more later) I would've gotten a few hours), and my days off at the bell have been spent working at the arcade. Not counting yesterday/Tuesday, my last day off was over a week ago, and Christmas is my next day off, after that I'm not sure except for January 8th and 9th since I've had those days requested off for at least a month for l0kpalooza, a two day DDR-event in Carousel Mall featuring five different tournaments where I'll be entering three of them. I've been improving lately, most noticibly in doubles, and my goal for that tournament is to qualify for it (only 16 slots).

However, it looks like outside of Christmas on Saturday, this year is going to end sucky for me, aside from the whole "school and parents" thing, I got really fucking sick on Monday. At about 3:30 I started feeling woozy and all, and it hit in hard about an hour later and I was essentially useless. Could barely walk, carry things, anything, never felt so helpless before in my life. I had my sister's car for the day (a miracle in itself O_o; ) and I couldn't even bring myself to drive it back to my parents'. I called them to pick me and the car up. Was still in the same shitty state there, tried to eat a cracker at like quarter to 10 and puked everything out right after. It was horrible. I called into work right after that for Tuesday, where I slept practically all day, until about 4PM. o_o;; Didn't feel any better until later that night, and this/Wednesday morning I was feeling good enough to function decentally, and was able to get through my work shift, and even finished my Christmas shopping (walked to Walmart and back). I'm just glad I'm better, during some parts of it I was afraid I had mono. o_o;

Hopefully I can start 2005 on a better note, I think I've got a good foot in the ground with taking next semester off, and l0kpalooza should be a lot of fun to start off with, and with any luck I'll be partying with friends for New Year's.

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