Jumbled Thoughts

meh
It seems that this weekend is falling apart as it's just getting started. Not sure where excatly to start since it's a bunch of shit that ties into each other, and for the first time that I can remember, I don't know excatly what I'll be doing or where I'll be staying or anything on the hours outside of working. This Sunday is also the NYSFBC show at the Carrier Dome, the final marching band performance in the entire state where it all ends, and I don't know if I'll be able to attend it this year. The reason I don't know is because I got put on the damn schedule at the bell. I had put my request for the day off at least a week and a half ago, well before Greg even thought about doing the schedule for this week, and apparentally he thinks that we need a lot of people on a Sunday that all three of us who requested the day off can get it, though god forbid he or Joanne work a Sunday once to help out this situation. So looking at the NYSFBC schedule and seeing when B'ville is on, there might be a chance I can go if I change shifts with someone with the possibility of having to leave work early, but I won't really know that for sure until I'm in tomorrow (Saturday) to talk to the girl I need to switch with since I haven't seen her since seeing the schedule. This kinda pisses me off since I haven't missed the dome show since my first year of marching band, and even moreso with this year being my brother's senior year and last performance. Fucking bullshit that I might end up missing this since in my eyes no effort was made to give me the day off, especially being the 3rd most senior in the store. I don't feel that I should get any special treatment just because of my seniority, I feel very far from that, but at the same time I don't feel that there should be any problems giving me a day off that I get off to go to this show every fucking year, especially the last year I'll get to see my brother on that field.

Tomorrow (Saturday) is just going to be a total mind fuck from the start. Because of two people (a couple) requesting the night (4PM+) off, my shift is changed from the weekly 9 - 5 to a 4 - close shift. So now I'm closing the store. What makes this more fun than normal is my uncertanity of Sunday, where if I can arrange to go to the show, I'll get a ride to my parent's after closing, get up early for work on Sunday then go to the show after work, or if I can't go to the show then I'd like to get back to my house for the night and go about a normal Sunday only in a bad mood for not being able to see the show. If that were the case, then normally there would be no problem since I'd be borrowing Steve's car for the day. However, this weekend I don't have that option since he's going somewhere to see someone or something, I dunno. So that means I've got to take the bus, which adds on to this great situation since the fucking geniuses in Centro have only three bus runs in the Oswego - Syracuse route on the day that one would think required at least four (if not five) runs to have nice even spaces between the runs and really profit from it, but add a 4th route this year to weekdays, which is a nice touch, but doesn't make as much sense as adding the run on a Saturday would be. So now I can be to the mall twice really fucking early, or half an hour late. Really fucking early it is, and on a very crowded day too. I guess the only positive I see in this is that I won't be working while the costume contest in the food court is going on, though between attempting to do a schedule change while figuring out stuff with my parents seems almost as fun. Best part is that since I don't know what's going to happen, I'll have to days of clothes packed with me since I don't know if I'll be back in my house anytime between tomorrow morning and potentially Monday evening.

Let's add on to this that Greg decided to put me on the schedule for this coming Friday, just a couple days before Halloween. We've discussed in the recent past that I'll get Fridays off to work the arcade those days so I can keep a set schedule there plus any added shifts someone might need to take off over there. When I was on the schedule for the Friday last week, he was on vacation so I understood that I was needed there and got my arcade shift covered. I don't know why he wants me on for next Friday since I'm not really needed there on that day, and during the shift I'll be working we'll be dead anyway. Hopefully I'll get some more insight on it tomorrow, since being as irrtated as I'll probably be, I'll know I'll probably mention it sometime. I really don't want to lose the one shift I have every week in the arcade for no reason, especially since everything was already worked out for it.

All this scheduling bullshit at the bell is starting to piss me off because these are problems that shouldn't be happening. I can understand being needed to close tomorrow and can deal with that, but possibly not being able to see my brother's final marching band performance and taking away yet another shift away from the arcade when I thought there was an understanding about it a while ago is ridiculous. Add this into that we've been getting pretty crappy champs check (think something along the lines of mystery shoppers and such) scored lately with me present at the times of them, making me worried if I'll have a job there when I find out about them (the bad scores aren't completely my fault, but getting points marked off for speed when I'm steaming makes me feel like it mostly is, especially when I've been trying so hard these past months to prove I can be an exceptional employee anywhere I'm put and then get stomped upon with those scores) is seriously making me think about finding a new job. Very recentally, there was a note on the dry board about some of the point stats of the last bunch of champs checks, stating after the stats that we're in fast food and need to be fast and if we couldn't then we should find different jobs, and to initial to show we read that. I really took that to heart since lately it seems I can't handle fast food anymore. I've been there over three years now, and with all these situations building up, I don't know if I can handle it much anymore. I'm suprised I've lasted this long, but I know that's because we've always had a great staff, no matter how many times it's changed, that got along well with each other, almost like a second family. Honestly, I almost think of Greg as a second father to me since I've been there since just before I even started college and the closeness between us. If it wasn't for having a great staff all the time, I don't think I would've lasted so long.

I think I will last there a little longer though, once I get past this weekend where the shit just seems to keep on hitting the fan I'm sure I'll be fine when things cool down after the weekend. I just really needed to get all that out since this weekend is really going to suck and there's so much attributing to it and most of it points to the bell. I feel a bit better now and should probably head off to bed before I ramble on any farther.

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